Exile in Korea

Even when you are making good money, even when you are staying in the famous beach resort in Korea, waking up to a magnificent sea view every morning, why you have the deepest empty hollow  feeling in your heart?

Your heart is where your family is. It has been more than 10 years when I learnt the most important thing in life is family and friends (true friends that is). I was lost once when I ignore advice and care from them, but they still offered help when I stumbled and fell.

Now I still stand alone in a foreign country, although the circumstances had change but the hollow feeling is the same.

It has been 6 months since my exile in Korea starts, no doubt you make new friends, but the moments I cherished and missed most are the short trips back HOME.

Oct 2012 Move to Korea

Nov 2012 Cat is 7 months pregnant

Dec 2012 Cat is 8 months pregnant - busy setting up house and other arrangmenet for the arrival

31 Jan 2013 Arrival of the twins! proudest moment of my life. That is the time when you actually feel you achieved something with your life partner...

Feb 2013 Twins one month old

March 2013 Twins 2 months old

April 2013 Twins 100 days! (I was not aorund for that!)

May 2013 Busy plannign for nanies and mobilising twins to Korea. A tough task.

Consistency and discipline

One thing I have learnt over the years is that I am losing my drive, passion. I used to be a discipline person, diligent and know what I want in life. Nowadays I am just complacent. I can't even get myself to post one article per week for this blog. The last entry was 3 months ago.

What had happened over the past 3 months?

Our twin babies were born, that is game changer, but still no reason for me to stop writing and recording my thoughts. Not sure if that is even relevant but this blog is something I am proud of which I started few years back - 2007? 5 years ago.

My life since 2003 was basically work and one can trace my life base on the projects I was involved. Nowadays I recall myself base on the projects I was on, nothing else. Other significant part of my life would be with my cat and the places we traveled to over the years.

There is no significant accomplishment which I can be proud of or help me retire earlier. Work in Korea is OK which pays well but that is it.

Tried to setup something few years back with a few friends but had to wrap up the company recently due to non committal in the business from all parties, myself included. Everyone expect the other guy to do the work.

No resolve on how to progress from here, I just have to find my path and make sure I stay consistent and discipline, that's the hard part.

Life

This is a sad week...

On Sunday I received news a childhood friend had passed away. Her mum and mine were best friends, we used to visit each other regularly when we were young. We drifted apart after primary school.. hasn not seen here since but still kept in touch through her younger sister who is same age as me.

Tuesday received news that my ex colleague's father had passed on after a few weeks struggle in the hospital. My colleague had kept eveyone updated on FB and everyone was praying for him. (Pray? it seems that is the only gesture available when you feel for the person but knowing nothing much you can do, a sensation I could never get used to, a feeling of weakness that sores your nerves)

First message I received in my SMS this morning I was told a close High school friend will be under going operation to remove brain tumor.. unsure about the chances and friends and mates have setup a page in FB to wish her well..

IN the car on the way to work my colleague who car pool with me received a message from his girlfriend in Thailand informing him that her gransmother had passed away...

This is by far the most death notices I have received in a week.. one can't help but thry to be philosophical to explain the ruins of life and attempt to cheer others of the silver lining...

Holy Shit! What a sensation!

Happy New Year to all! 2012 came and gone, no point crying over spilt milk... did not achieve target to lose weight, no MBA, no PE, no JIM etc etc.

Well, at least I am now in Korea, a new experience for em, to work in a cold climate country. and my cat is having babies...

This piece is not about new year resolution. It is about me traveling 14 hours from KL to Busan, from 32C to -8C this morning in Busan.

Shit that is cold. To make matters worst the site office I am in is facing seafront, throw in the windchill factor the coldness is bone chilling. Further to that the toilet is situated in a building away from the site office, one have to go out from the office and climb 3 storeys to reach the toilet. On top of that the toilet is not ventilated. Imagine when you pull down your pants to take a dung and feeling the cold breeze of   -8C flowing through your ass haha!

What a sensation!

Cheers everybody!