Major events happened throughout the year of 2011 and I am still in my mundane job, no job satisfaction, no idea where will I be in 20 years.
A close friend dies and suddenly it is a wake up call to everybody. WTF? Now catching up, gathering of old friends became an in thing. I used to be very energetic to these events but now I only wonder how many people will shed a tear when I am laying in my coffin.
Working for a big corporation in a big project have its perks, pay is good but you are stuck at a corner of a workstation whole day with senior citizens mostly, who are always nice to you. They are all paid very well, but do I want to end up like them? They work hard and they play hard, most of them are in their fifties, some sixties, many still have a variety girlfriends, travel the world when holiday is due.
It is not a bad existence actually. Well at least I don't screw up I know I will end up just like them. But is that me? Somewhat living in my past glories of being student leader, early over achiever, business owner in the twenties, failed businessman in early thirties, now working for an international company trying to build up enough wealth to pay off my failoed business venture.
I could write a book and be a motivational speaker to young enterpreneurs! I should! but then again I am too lazy to pick up the pen to write down my stuff. Discipline! Thats what I lack? Year over year of planning and half past six execution style, thats why I have not been able to shed any weight, get my PE, write a memoir...
Well it is the time of the year again. Hopefully 2012 will not be the end of the world!
Merry Xmas and Happy New Year!
